thoughts are so weird.

so. i've been inspired to write a blog. i've always wondered what went on inside my pastor's head...and he started a blog not too long ago to put his thoughts on display. i bet a lot more people will be interested in his thoughts than mine....but i think this blog is more for me. Sometimes i think it's important to get your thoughts out on paper (or webpage. ha) so that they transfer from intangible to tangible. When you have something you can hold on to, look at, read out loud...its often easier to understand and organize. And my thoughts definatley need to be organized. I'm in this crazy stage in my life where i'm trying to figure myself out and i'm trying to be me-the woman God created me to be. (there's that dreaded "woman" word again.) But how can i try to be me if i dont know who "me" is? I figure if i can organize my thoughts, get them on paper and read them it will be easier to figure those thoughts out.

Speaking of thoughts, aren't they weird? How is it that we can have a million of them rushing through our head all at once and appear like we are calm and collected on the outside?

And here's a crazy thing...have you ever tried to AUDIT your thoughts? Put them through a filter? I've been trying to do this for a while now and have discovered that it is not as easy as i thought. (ha.) See, i try really hard to follow Jesus. (the key word is TRY.) Well, the thing about Jesus is that He's perfect. And i want to be like him. So essentially the goal here is perfection. (i've learned to always set your goals higher than you think you can possibly achieve. it helps you live out to your full potential.) so in order to be perfect like Jesus i have to not only act like Him but think like Him. not WWJD but WWJT?

Have you ever caught yourself thinking something that doesnt quite line up with the WWJT lifestyle? Like something just ruthless or mean or insensitive or prideful or lustful? i do. it drives me nuts. i HATE those thoughts. And they seem to pop up out of no where sometimes. i try my best to catch them as soon as they surface, but sometimes there are just too many and some slip by unnoticed. It's quite annoying.

Anyways, i'm not exactly sure where i'm going with this(i tend to do that alot.)

I guess my main point is thoughts are SO weird.

And i'm going to try and capture my weird thoughts in this blog for all to see.

:)